I never title my pieces until after they're complete, and even then it's more of a process of listening rather than deciding. Usually a word starts to rise in my mind, and with some extra coaxing becomes a full title. With this piece, the word "halcyon" started to echo in my thoughts. I knew that one of it's definitions was, "a period of time in the past that was idyllically happy and peaceful"- but when I looked up the full meaning, I was really surprised and delighted to learn it also refers to "a mythical bird said by ancient writers to breed in a nest floating at sea at the winter solstice, charming the wind and waves into calm." And so I titled it "Halcyon Song."
|The lighting really has an effect on the feel of the piece and the angle and intensity of the shadows cast.|
This piece took more out of me than any other piece I've ever created. Literal blood, sweat and tears were poured into it's creation- my fingers were nicked and cut on all sides, and the frustration of working in a new medium plus the pressure of creating a piece for such a prestigious show definitely made me cry on more than one occasion. I wrestled with heave self-doubt as I would make and the unmake a particular part of the piece, sometimes redoing the same part three or four times before I got it right. I cut hundreds of paper feathers, throwing away most of them. Since this was only the second paper sculpture I've ever made, it was a huge process of trail and error, all with a swiftly approaching deadline culminating in being in a show with artists I've respected, admired, and swooned over for years.
|The tiny arrows were my favorite part.|
Somehow in the end, it all came together. Somehow it always does. Art is such a teacher for me in reminding me to have faith in the process, to see beyond the immediate small failures and to keep working towards a larger goal. It shows me again and again that my biggest obstacle is my self-doubt and that the often meandering unfolding of reality is to be trusted.
|In progress shots...|
|Custom built plexiglass shadowbox frame.|
To view the other amazing pieces of art that were part of Suggestivism: Resonance at Spoke Art in San Francisco, click here.
|Laughing with artist and curator Nathan Spoor.|
|Leaning in close to see the details...|
|All photos of the opening night by Rob Williamson.|